Contrary to my best sober judgment

~ Jason Schwartz
why oh why by larryosan

This recovering writer got herself into a very unusual situation but described a near universal internal experience for us recovering folks:

When I look back at [my comments] today, I cringe. In retrospect I see it as contrary to my best sober judgment—not to mention legal advice. As is the way of the addict, I was seeking to be understood.  Feeling humiliated, I had failed to stay humble. As a result, the finished piece is less than true. I was not, as I am described in the story’s introduction, actually a “picture of tranquility.” Underneath that angry, tough-girl exterior, I was terrified. And acting from a place of fear, I only made it worse.

Published by Jason Schwartz

I have been an addiction professional and social worker since 1994. I started blogging in 2005 as the Clinical Director at Dawn Farm. I no longer work at Dawn Farm and am now the Director of Behavioral Medicine at a community hospital, and a lecturer at Eastern Michigan University’s School of Social Work. Views expressed here are my own. Keep in mind that the field, the contexts in which the field operates, and my views have changed over time.